Bleh. Some odd stuff happened today. I dunno what's wrong with me!

Oh and do read zaobaoNOW page 7! :)The article on JJC's Love fiesta!

WHAT"S WRONG WITH ME.

gazed at e stars@5:28 PM
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Still recovering. The many items that I possess bring back old memories. Time to leave them behind bah.

ARGH. Came across some stuff. I believe that Buddha is worshipped as a God, contrary to what I read on the blog. In fact, there are so many Gods in Buddhism. God of wealth, Monkey God, etc. Plus, some stuff on the evolution theory. The usual evolution stuff. I came from a worm! -_-" Personally, if there was a God, it would be scientific. Just tt we dun understand how things are run yet. If so, we ourselves will be God. duhh. :) The evolution theory is easily debunked by fossils found that date back to the time when humans were not supposed to exist. Okay I shall stop this cheemness here. Ask me on msn if you want to debate. I'm ready. :P

Did up my speech yesterday from 10am onwards. Met up with Jia Hao, finished up the necessary slides, then went on to IMM to purchase some materials. After which, we actually went to Bukit Batok to find a strainer for the demonstration. FOUND it by God's grace. $6.50 lehh! Also got this mini strainer from Daiso. $2... And of course a recycled paper bag $2. Later on in the day we got another piece of recycled paper for $2. Total burnout: $12.50. All becos of some assessed speech... Hope we do well! After getting materials we went to my house where we tried to make the paper ourselves. Quite messy and erm, rather inconvenient. But it was fun! :) *shreds newspapers*

Okay. We did enough work there. Hopped on the train and went to vivocity to catch a movie. "The last dance". Very cheem storyline. About an assassin who killed people , but had a conscience. Go watch it lar. But its NC16. Cos of the violence. Well I guess I had a nice time watching the movie while chomping on Burger King. lols. Yupp. After the movie we went for a snack at Food republic. Din eat anything. So late liao still eat, will get fat. lol. Anyways, we got this wonderful piece of recycled paper at Daiso. Good for speech!

Went on our way home! And yar I'm now in school typing this. The schedule for the rest of today?

TUESDAY
9am to 1030am - Random website surfing
1030am to 11am - Journey to Gym
11am to 12pm - Gym! :)
12pm to 130pm - Lunch!
130pm to 2pm - Journey back to school
2pm - Radio Meeting with Adam
6pm - Radio Room booking
8pm - End of School
9pm - GO HOME CHAT WITH LYDIA. :)
12am - Nitey Nite.

WEDNESDAY
9am to 10am - Random website surfing
10am to 12pm - Proposal Essay Meeting
12pm to 1245pm- Lunch
1245pm to 4pm - Proposal Essay Meeting
4pm to 5pm - Speech Meeting
5pm - Proceed to NHHS (After so long rite?)
515pm - Meet Ivy to pass her photos
530pm - ???

THURSDAY
9am to 12pm - Speech meeting
12pm to 1pm- Lunch
3pm to 6pm - Radio tutorial
630pm - ???

FRIDAY
8am - Speech Meeting
9am - FINAL ASSESSED SPEECH
10am onwards - FREEDOM (okay abit only)

What I have left:
1) Final Assessed Speech
2) Proposal Essay
3) Radio info capsule

HOLS HERE I COME! :) Whips out camera!

gazed at e stars@9:12 AM
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Feeling abit distant from the Lord. No idea why. Havent been able to draw closer lately... Well we shall not let myself go down the abyss of darkness right!

Things will get better!

I got an opportunity to go to Beijing for a production shoot in September this year. It will be a two week shoot, and only 2 photographers are involved. Me and Xianjie. :) It will probably cover one IS module, and I will get CCA points. So yar, you will get to see photos of the people's lives in Beijing. It will be the first time ever I get to go overseas without my parents... With my camera. However, my camera is not good enough for this trip. Either I get a new camera, or write a proposal to Nikon to sponsor us cameras. 3 frames per second is not god enough for sports... We are gonna cover the pre olympics also at Beijing. So yar, we would require a lot of equipment! Not just my slow 70-300mm lens! Hopefully all will turn out well and yar, I will get an experience of a lifetime.

Truly, God has allowed that to happen! But I will definitely miss my dear Singapore. And the people whom I still love so much on it, like my parents, loved ones like my sis Lydia, etc.

I guess its like that la. opportunities are provided by God, and I will lift up all praise to Him.

The semester is coming to an end.

2 months of holidays are here! I'm so excited can!

Time to go out to shoot more and more. Check out my new photo gallery:

Click here

Recently went out with SK to shoot nature... So fun lar. We went to the botanics to shoot ducks. :)

Check out my album for the pics.

Check out SK's pics too!

Click here


Well that's all!

I'm left with these:
- Final assessed speech
- Proposal Essay (1600words)
- Radio informational capsule

Then I'm free. I want my new lens. I want a new bag. :P

gazed at e stars@9:34 AM
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6 Areas to be strong in in order to impact culture:

1) Spiritual
2) Practical
3) Relationship
4) Phyical
5) Finance
6) Emotional


If I were to rank them in importance, I think every one plays a part. Every thing is linked. If you are emotionally down, you might get affected physically and spiritually. And vice versa. Well. Came across several things that spoke to me.

Psalms 92:12-14 - Well this verse applied to me.
Perhaps its time to look and see if I'm on the right path. Its not what I want. I will go according to his will, not mine.

Encourage people. Well I slowed down my evangelism efforts recently because I was emotionally hit quite badly. And that leads to the emotional part of the message. Totally applied to me. "Be content with what you have" - Hebrews 13:5

In the end. It all boils down to the relationship with God. Don't you think so?

I was looking more at the evangelism side of the message, cos yar I really see the need to spread the very basics of christianity. Not just bringing people to church. Not just going on outings. Bring them to church, so what? It will only confuse them if you dun explain.

gazed at e stars@11:32 PM
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There apparently is some misleading translations in the New King James version of the bible. After reading through an apologetic book written by many Lee Strobel, author of the case for Christ... The original Hebrew version and the NIV version is still more reliable. Which is rather shocking as many people use the NKJ version! From "Young men" in the original hebrew version, it became "young children" in the NKJ version. The NIV version says that it is "youths". Why is it important to note that such a small difference makes a BIG impact? The bear incident whereby the young men taunted Elisha and got mauled by two bears. They were called young children in the NJV version! This might mislead people to feel tt God is unmerciful...But in actual fact they were taunting Elisha and God!

Interesting. Apolgetics are nice to read.

Anyhow. Back to studies. 2 weeks to the HOLS. 2 months of hols. Cant wait. ICE SKATE! PHOTOGRAPHY! Here i come!
my shutter count hit abt 30k liao! LOL! That means i pressed the button 30k times liao... it might die at abt 40k... Den need to replace the mechanism...

gazed at e stars@8:36 AM
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Its time to start afresh and take a lonely walk towards the new chapter that begins to unfold ahead of me. Armed with my camera and experience, I shall walk forward in faith. Would also like to thank my sisters, namely Lydia,Audrey, Ivy SKY, Wan Ting, Chean Fei,Siew Kiang, Xin Yi. All the support given is appreciated. Enough of the sad stuff. Moving on.

Vivocity event shooting yesterday. JJC was involved. NH was also involved. Quite okay la. those it was quite wet and noisy. JJ students are totally hyper sia. i take my hat off them... like possessed like tt... all of them... woah. after all tt i went home alone. No clique lar. Most of my frens are casual frens de. haha. the life of a photographer. Photos submitted to sph lerr. look out for this wednesday baomihua. :)

Well, tts abt it i guess. Kudos to my dear sister Lydia. She really rawks. Thank you so much...

gazed at e stars@10:09 PM
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The pain of it all, is that nothing matters now. It was all planned out to be this way. I should have foreseen it. It lead to my revival in the Lord. Indirectly. And also led to my widening of social circles. And it led to where I am now. I was almost stopped by Cheri, but undeterred, I moved on with it. I learnt what was sacrifice. I learnt what was pain. And I learnt how to care. My weakness was evident. All my emotions were put into the pot, creating a wonderful melting pot of joy and love. The pot would go dry one day. And it finally did. Empty as it is now, it will not be filled ever again. Now I live to bring Him praise. There is noone else for me. None but Jesus. Crucified to set me free. Now I live to bring him praise. Thou there is grief, there will be compassion. His love ensures that we are not consumed. You shall be called: Almighty God. I really fall upon you oh Lord. Your name is higher. HIGHER. The dribbles down the cheeks are nothing. Tho they mean so much to me, its nothing compared to your love for me. And you will never forsake me. I will never forsake you either. I recommit myself to you oh Lord. You name is HIGHER. The dribbles will not stop. I had put in all I could. And it ended abruptly like this. I can only find comfort in the Lord. Was it my fault. Should I have listened to the warning from the start? If I did, all this would not have happened. Yet it was meant to be. The memories will always be in my heart. The pain cannot be helped. I wil suffer in silence. Forever. The harsh reality is unveiled. And the truth is brough upon the people like showers of molten silver. That's about it. I deleted 4 of my blogs.

gazed at e stars@11:36 PM
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Its over. Just like that thru msn. I shall find stregth in the Lord.

gazed at e stars@12:00 AM
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There can be miracles. When you believe. Though hope is frail. Its hard to kill. Who knows what miracles you can achieve. When you believe. Somehow you will. You will when you believe. And it always happen when you ask, and its easy to give in to your fears. There can be miracles when you believe.

Who knows what miracles you can achieve?

Somehow it will work out.

Current Location: School

Time: 2:26pm

What am I doing: Waiting for NH video to compress. Been waiting for an hour. Later going to compress more videos.

What I'm gonna do next: Submit homework, Go gym, meet Merrien.

Mood: neutral. quite bored. miss my camera.

Boring day sia. yawns.

gazed at e stars@2:17 PM
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XinTing.JingYing.Lilian.Wenya.Shirlyn.Gary.Ivy.SiewKiang. - Seeds planted.

EnXin.XueWei.Lydia. - Flowers blooming

I really thank the Lord for giving me the previledge to share with these people this year. Seeds were planted, flowers are blooming.

The prayers have not been in vain. Lydia was kindly brought back to the Lord after her church's Christmas Musical and prayers. Now she's such a strong child of God... Xue Wei changed totally from a depressed kid to a very cheerful person... EnXin, whom I met through a forum, got her faith renewed... XinTing got to know more about God and wants to know more... She will get to know Him better. I have faith in Him. He will touch her heart. Jingying was sadly not told the basics of Christianity despite going to a particular church for ages. Quite astonishing. But nevertheless she is willing to learn more about Him. Very touching... Will keep her in prayer. Lilian? Bringing her to Lydia's church this Saturday... God will touch her! Wenya... Havent talked to her in a while... Will tell her more stuff soons! :) Shirlyn. The person God used to revive me. God works in interesting ways. She will get to know Him more. I have faith. God will work in her. She will get touched by His amazing love. Gary. Despite being rough and abit violent. He will soon realise that all these are nothing. Compared to the love of God, all the stuff down here on Earth is nothing. Its hard to talk to him but I will keep praying for him... Guys have a different mindset you see. Ivy. My dear sister. Wants to know Him more. She will get touched by his love and I know its coming. Her salvation. Its coming. I'm so excited! Siew Kiang. Told her some stuff. Will tell her more. Really its something that I want to share. Its so nice and warm and cool. I will share His love with you people. His love overflows. Its not like some bf/gf relationship. Its everlasting love. Its agape.

Theres still one person I really want to bring to Him. But I lack the courage.

gazed at e stars@8:05 PM
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gazed at e stars@8:13 PM
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My total word count for the essay is 2493. Includes my outlines and references. Shiok la. lol. I lift it up in your hands oh Lord even as I submit it.

I will gladly show it to u if u ask it from me. haha. :)

Hmmm. Lydia rawks la. haha. YAY! haha. lalalalalalala.

Hmmmmm.

Thurs:

9am - Work on Assessed speech
12pm - Lunch
1pm - Socpsy tutorial
3pm - Radio tutorial
6pm - Home

HAND IN INFO ESSAY


Friday:

9am - Work on Socpsy journal
1pm - Written Communications Tutorial
4pm - Work on Assessed Speech
6pm - Meeting @ FMS Preview Theatre - Open house briefing
8pm - Home Sweet Home

Saturday:

9am - ?

12pm - Open House @ NP

1pm - ?

4pm - ?

gazed at e stars@2:18 PM
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Many of you are wondering. Eh? How come u lock all your blogs?

That's becos some guy apaprently saw the pics of the mrt stunts, and coped all of them MANUALLY and sent them to my school. Then I had to see the deputy director to clarify things. (cos tt person assumed tt the people in the pics were FMS students) ALL my lecturers saw my blog in this process. I was very traumatized. But if God is with me. Nobody can be against me. I LOVE GOD. ALL IS WELL.

All blogs will be locked for 2 weeks.

gazed at e stars@8:57 AM
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I will lock all blogs for a week or two. Till it dies down... I hate passwords... Though they keep me safe. But its very inconvenient for me as well.

What exactly happened? Read and try to find out. :)

gazed at e stars@8:06 AM
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You are beside me. Even in this time of testing. I was called up by the deputy director of my school to meet her later at 2pm. I'm trembling you know. It cant be good. My lecturer refuses to tell me why I'm meeting her! Its like so scary. The wait for 2pm is HELL i tell u. I can only think of 2 reasons why she wants to see me. One - Theres some event and she wants me to cover it. Two - I kena plagarism. I think the 2nd reason is more feasible. Accidental plagarism perhaps. And that means I lose 20% of my total score. Bringing it down to 80% means its already a B. This is not happening... Its like some dream. Wake me up oh Lord. Calm the storm please... Reach out for me even as I sink... You're beside me... Please... I'm falling back on you...

I cannot afford to die like that! Will keep you guys posted on what happens later.

All I know is I find rest in you.


From NP website:


Note:

The following procedure applies across all modules that the student is studying.
If two or more students are involved in plagiarism, the penalty will apply to all students involved, regardless of who was the originator and who did the copying. Security of assignments is the students’ responsibility until the assignment is submitted to Turnitin though MeL. That is, theft of an assignment, or parts of an assignment, will not be considered as excuses for plagiarism.
In the case of group projects, the student responsible for the plagiarised portion will face the penalty. Where it is not clear who is responsible for the plagiarism, all group members will face the penalty. The group leader should ensure that no part of the submission has been plagiarised.
If it is determined that plagiarism has occurred, the following penalties will apply.

First Instance of Committing Plagiarism
The tutor will interview the student involved in the instance of plagiarism. If the tutor is not satisfied with the student’s explanation, and determines that plagiarism has occurred, the student will receive zero mark for the assignment. No resubmission of the assignment will be allowed.

BUT I HAVE NEVER COMMITED THIS BEFORE!!!!!

Second Instance of Committing Plagiarism
The case will be referred to the School (or Division) Disciplinary Committee, which will consider the case and may interview the student(s) involved. If it is a proven second case, the student will fail that module.

Third Instance of Committing Plagiarism
The case will be referred to the NP Disciplinary Committee for its deliberation. This may result in dismissal from the Polytechnic.

gazed at e stars@12:38 PM
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I am falling to my knees. I need you more today to breathe in me. My prayer is still the same…. My heart is calling out your name…Sweet anointing fills this place. I am found in your embrace…. Rain down on me… rain down on me… Here in your presence I am free… Pour out like rain… come touch me again… Lord let your presence fall on me…. I am longing just to say… You power and your majesty… Sweet anointing fills this place…. I am found in your embrace…. Rain down on me… Rain down on me…Here in your presence I am free… Ahhhh rain down on me oh Lord…. Here in your presence I am free…. Free from all the troubles and worries of the world…. Cry out to him! Sweet anointing fills this place…. Wash me over! Sweet anointing! Ahhhhhh…… You rule my life FATHER! ☺ Hooray…. YAY! What a crazy long post…. But truly, just turn to the Lord and He will provide! Rain down on me!

There are certain things that really crack me to pieces…. But the Lord glues me back together so easily! Praise him to the highest ya! I’m not Kai Wen without him! Tho I’m really cracked today… I’m sure I will get over it soon. The feeling sucks. I don’t want to end it all like this, I’m holding back… Things will get better…. Woah I’m really using high context communication in a collective culture! LOL! You won’t understand or comprehend cos its like, too verbose for your understanding! Too bad ya! What a random blog post! I’m HIGH! Basically I’m currently in Nan Hua High school typing this while waiting…. Waiting for what or who? I’ve got no idea…. You won’t find out here! Tired sia.

Went to school in the morning to finish off my essay reference list… After that I proceeded to church for worship practice… Scary! Hmmm…. ☺ Sing sing sing…. Reminds me of Sing Xuan. LOL. After all that I went ICE SKATING with T107… FUN! Finally some relaxation after the socpsy test…. Which was okay la… I love ice skating. Too bad the rink is too tiny. GRRR. At least they are FINALLY renovating that place. They earn alot of $ la! I spent like $17 today cos it was an individual ticket. HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEGGY btw…. Nice snow! ☺ I learnt how to skate backwards too! Yay! And learnt how to skate one legged. Lol… fun sia! I was first on ice again today after resurfacing! Crazy me went ultra fast and skidded halfway… OOPS. And I went in circles uncontrollably on my skates. LOL. Din fall down though. I love ice skating! Too bad I still dun have the confidence to bring my SLR on ice. I will never dare to do that…

After ice skating I visited NH, and typed this. ☺

Oh I talked to Ruth online. Another wonderful child of God. ☺ YAY. Erm some things are gonna change. YES.

gazed at e stars@11:59 PM
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When a person sincerely goes forward to do something voluntarily, why is it so that he gets taken advantage of?
When a person sincerely loves another, why is it taken for granted?
When a person sincerely studies hard, why is it so that people mock?

It is indeed an interesting thing to consider.

In the very end. It still boils down to one thing. Humans. Sinners. I'm one too. But I've got the Lord. Tower of refuge and strength. I will never cease to love Him. Shout to the Lord!
With faith, the impossible becomes possible.
Everything is possible with God.

I will not be made use of by humans.
I will not be made use of by humans.
Shoo.
Let me marvel at what God has planned out.

Mountains bow down. The seas will roar. He wil return. And the unsaved, will diminish in a puff. Acknowledge your dad who loves you. Or He will disown you. Its simple. Its either light or darkness. Theres no grey area. Light cannot be yoked with darkness. The light will overcome darkness. They cannot be as one.

The above seems to be rather odd looking. Neverminds. :)

gazed at e stars@10:36 AM
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Its so disappointing! Its indirectly sending the unsaved to hell la! With good intentions yet poor way of telling others. That's not the way of planting the seed! You don't go and insult others! That's not how evangelism is carried out! I'm so upset. The hearts of the unsaved closed up completely cos of the method you all used! Do u know how painful it is to see them going down to the lake of fire?

gazed at e stars@9:55 PM
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